After a long gap and.....

Its been more than a year I was out of the blogging world and I am once again trying very hard to dare to write something into my blog. I do not know if my blogging friends who used to be kind enough to visit my blog still remember me or not. 

I do not know what kept me away from blogging. I found nothing to write or it would be right to say that I was having a mental block. It is not that after a year I am here and right away I am writing this post. N number of times I tried to write something but hesitated. Today also, I am not sure I shall publish whatever I am writing.

It was not that I did not have anything to write. The last whole year had a few happy and proud moments which were worth sharing with you all. I am not sure you all will be interested in reading what I am writing because it is just about me. Because I always find it easy to write something which I have experienced. With the hope that you all will support me as you did earlier, I am daring to continue.

Akanksha, if you all remember, appeared for a national junior merit scholarship for dance (Scholarship Examination) last year, was awarded with the same. She is the sole recipient from the state of West Bengal in Manipuri Dance form and will continue to receive the scholarship till the age of twenty.  

The father was also not behind.He was awarded the Pre-Sales Champion for the year 2014(Eastern Region) by Symantec. Also he was one among four employees in his company who was awarded as the best sales person of the year. Four of them were gifted with an iPhone 6 by the Managing Director of the company.

                   

Aren't these some of the proud moments for me to share with you all. Yet I was held back by something. Apart from all these, my man, a secret admirer of my writings, gifted me with a Canon SLR, might be with the hope that wifey will use it productively. But it is lying inside the cupboard, unused.                     

What I did the whole year? I just sometimes sit and ponder. I had become so lazy that I even do not regularly read the newspaper, so reading books is a far off thing. I do not watch the idiot box either. I do not meet friends too often. My maid comes and does the house hold chores. I do not login to my blog nor do I regularly visit my fellow blogger's blogs, as I used to do. So what do I do? I am awestruck. Still the whole day I do not get time. I am always in a hurry. For what I do not know. When people ask why don't you write now a days. I reply that I am not able to make time to write. But I find myself doing nothing productive and not getting time is I feel just an excuse.

Why am I feeling like this? Is this a phase of life that will fade with time. Do all who are of my age or who crossed that age, faced the same, or am I an exception? Will I ever get the flow to write something, at least to keep my blog updated and continue my sweetest bonding with my wonderful friends of the blogging world. 

I do not know what I wrote but this time I am going to publish this because I need to break the silence. Today when I logged in I got scared and found my blog in the verge of extinction. Not a single viewer the whole day and all time viewers count also fell considerably. So, keeping my finger crossed and with the hope that my friends will atleast peep into my blog someday and surprise me, I am publishing this stupid post today.